This is something of a little joke of mine, but it is also quite true. I have known from an early age that I would never have any interest in reproducing, there are various different reasons for my disinclination towards having kids, but the simplest and first and foremost is quite frankly I don’t like children (yes, I am a mean and terrible person). I also think it is more environmentally friendly not to have children because there are already too many people on Earth and I have no desire to contribute to human overpopulation. And as a misanthrope I generally dislike the human race as a whole and am rather disinterested in the continuation of the survival of the human race.
When I was in high school I told my mom I wanted to get my tubes tied needless to say she said I should wait a bit before making that choice. People never would truly believe or accept my certainty in the fact that I really didn’t and never would want kids. They would always say I would change my mind when I got older, or just wait until I met the right person.
Well here I am now, old enough (I won’t give the exact number but between 30-40) and in a happily committed relationship and still adamant about not wanting to have kids.
I think there should be some sort of sterility pill, to me it makes sense for the next evolution in birth control, there are always those people who did change their mind about wanting kids, but for those individuals who are certain about not wanting to have anything to do with breeding, instead of having to use some form of birth control that has to be taken on a daily basis, or have to be subjected to an invasive surgery, there should be a pill I can take that would just nuke my whole reductive system and not have to worry about it every again.
So I came up with this little joke of mine that I am proof that there is no God, because if there was an all powerful, all knowing, benevolent God he would have made me naturally barren, while some other woman who cannot have kids but really wants them would have been made fertile.
Would that really be so hard for God to manage? He could just be like “Hey, here is someone who really has no need or use for her reproductive system, and doesn’t really need to have one in working order, and on the other hand this woman over here would be an awesome mother, but she is infertile” So just poof switch parts, the woman who is not going to use it can have the one that doesn’t work and the woman who would be grateful for it can be made fertile.
Then again if there is an all knowing God, he would know I would be sitting here typing this blog post right now (and know how I would come to feel about him and his whole religion) so he probably intentionally cursed me with fertility because he knows that for what most people is a miracle, gift of life, blah blah blah, for me would just be an inconvenience so he is just laughing at me and my fruitless fist waving.
Alas maybe if I had been a nice, better person I would have been blessed with bareness. But I suppose the good thing is that a woman’s reproductive system runs on a clock so I can just wait for it to wind itself out.